There are days when all you want to do is cry. There are days that you wonder what life is really for. The tears seem endless and the road long, the world breaks your heart and continues to spin; just remember that there is light at the end of the tunnel, there is always hope, no matter how long the night the dawn will come and there is a rainbow at the end of the storm.
I find that even after 10 months and 20 days I still have to remind myself that everything happens for a reason and God never gives us more than we can handle. Loosing Janice was devastating, I literally felt my heart break when I walked into the ER and saw Kevin holding her with tears fresh on his cheeks and he told me she was gone. That day I don’t think I will ever forget. I like to think that there was a reason for her leaving so soon and so suddenly but I don’t know what it is or if I will ever understand. Tears still stain my pillow some nights, Grumpy Bear is never far from my bed and if I go out of town he is always on the list.
I don’t know why I had to go through the tragedy of loosing Janice and then to have to hear that a friend of mine has a stillborn. I know that it is said “better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all” but sometimes it is hard to see and no matter what doesn’t make the pain any easier. Others say that you can’t appreciate the good without the bad, you don’t know happiness unless you have known grief, but no matter how you say it nothing can take the scars away. Nothing can take the pain away. I know someone who lost a infant almost 40 years ago and still in the summer she still feels it and when she heard about Janice it sent her back all those years.
Don’t tell someone you understand unless you have walked in their shoes. Don’t tell someone it will get better without knowing and truly understanding what they are going through. Love lasts forever and sadly so does the grief of loosing a child.
There are days when all you want to do is cry. There are days that you wonder what life is really for. The tears seem endless and the road long, the world breaks your heart and continues to spin; just remember that there is light at the end of the tunnel, there is always hope, no matter how long the night the dawn will come and there is a rainbow at the end of the storm.
I find that even after 10 months and 20 days I still have to remind myself that everything happens for a reason and God never gives us more than we can handle. Loosing Janice was devastating, I literally felt my heart break when I walked into the ER and saw Kevin holding her with tears fresh on his cheeks and he told me she was gone. That day I don’t think I will ever forget. I like to think that there was a reason for her leaving so soon and so suddenly but I don’t know what it is or if I will ever understand. Tears still stain my pillow some nights, Grumpy Bear is never far from my bed and if I go out of town he is always on the list.
I don’t know why I had to go through the tragedy of loosing Janice and then to have to hear that a friend of mine has a stillborn. I know that it is said “better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all” but sometimes it is hard to see and no matter what doesn’t make the pain any easier. Others say that you can’t appreciate the good without the bad, you don’t know happiness unless you have known grief, but no matter how you say it nothing can take the scars away. Nothing can take the pain away. I know someone who lost a infant almost 40 years ago and still in the summer she still feels it and when she heard about Janice it sent her back all those years.
Don’t tell someone you understand unless you have walked in their shoes. Don’t tell someone it will get better without knowing and truly understanding what they are going through. Love lasts forever and sadly so does the grief of loosing a child.
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