One year and three months ago I list my little girl. Janice would be four years six months eleven days today but instead she is gone to heaven, leaving me to sit quietly holding her baby sister Abbygail as I reflect on what she should be doing.
Janice should be cooing over her sister and bugging me to let her help. This fall Janice would be starting kindergarten. So many things Janice will never get to do or see or experience.
Everything I do to keep her memory alive seems so insignificant. I know friends and family will remember Janice but few if any will remember her from her generation, from daycare, or anywhere else.
Janice deserved so much more.
Abbygail deserved the chance to know her sister.
There are so many things I wanted Janice to have the chance to do and see. Janice had such a light inside her, she was filled with determination and life. Janice could have been mistaken for an angel on earth...who am I kidding she WAS an angel on earth. Janice inspired and brought light to so many. I find it hard to believe that she was done on earth, there is so much more, so many more people's lives to touch.
A light put out too soon, Janice my lil angel.
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