DON'T

Don't pretend to know what I am going through;
Don't pretend to know what it is like;
Don't tell me you understand;
When it is not your life.

Don't tell me you understand;
Don't tell me to dry my tears;
Don't tell me "next year";
Cause you don't know my fears.

You don't know what I go through;
You don't know how I hide the tears or the fears;
You don't know how my life has changed;
You don't know how long my nights have been.

You don't know why I cry;
You don't know the longing in my heart;
You don't know what it is like to loose a piece of your heart;
You don't know how many tears I've cried.

You don't know how it hurts;
Or how I force the smile,
When all the tears just want to fall.
The jealousy I feel watching on your wall.

Don't tell me to be patient;
Don't tell me not to cry;
Don't tell me what is good for me;
When I am still in Hell.

Yes, a baby is on it's way;
Yes, the sun will rise again;
Yes, there is a rainbow after the storm;
Yes, life does go on.

No, my child is not coming home;
No, my child will never grow up;
They will never know their siblings or their siblings know them,
Not the way I know mine and you know yours.

So don't tell me to dry my eyes;
Don't tell me these late nights are practice; 
Cause you don't know my puffy eyes;
You don't know my pain.

I will force the smile;
I will give joy to this new bundle
I will continue in a life that I know is not the same;
I will find peace after war,
And heal my broken heart.

She will not be forgotten;
She will never be alone;
She will live forever in my heart
She will always be my Angel, Janice.
Always in my heart.


In memory of Janice Margaret Destiny-Ann Story
My Angel in Heaven and forever a part of me.